Sept 11, 2017

Sept 11 2017

Dear Mic

Today, I no longer cried in the morning. I still wake up around 6am and just stare at the ceiling but the beautiful thing about this is that the first thought I had each time I wake up is to pray and thank the Lord for a new day. 

Dati kapag nagigising ako, cellphone kaagad ang hinahanap ng mata ko pagkagising dahil ganitong oras nag-gogood morning ka na. Now, I realised that prayers should be the first thoughts that I must have before anything else. Everytime I pray in the morning, I feel a part of my brokenness is being redeemed. I am slowly beginning to feel at peace. 

I have forgiven you already Mic. I have no regrets because at some point, you made me the happiest girl in the planet. I am thankful sa lahat at sa love mo sa akin kahit alam ko na nawala iyon. 

Now I realized that nothing is certain in this wos but only God is certain. Loved ones, people, family, they will leave me one day but the love of the Lord will be forever in me. I am happy that I am slowly finding my purpose. That I should put Lord first in everything. 

I wish you the best Mic and sana, malampasan mo ang mga pagsubok sa family mo. 

PS. 

I've read today that the opposite of love is not hate but rather, apathy. That moment when you no longer feel anything towards that person, no hate, no love, nothing - apathy is the real road to moving on. In short, I just woke up one day and namanhid na lang ako kahit anong pakiramdam sa iyo.