Disappointment is the difference between reality and expectation
…and I couldn’t agree more. Reflecting on my attitude, I’ve been working restless for the past weeks and so with all the sudden changes of the weather, my body has finally succumbed for its need to rest & recover.
Flu anyone?
I’ve (and perhaps my team mates’ too) been continuously bugged by my endless coughing during last night’s shift. It was embarrassing, really, BUT what the heck can I do to stop it? I have been waiting for this illness to breakthrough after 6 long months of being a busy bee - certified workaholic with a perfect attendance to boot. (Hell yeah) Now that I finally got the flu, nothing could dampen my irritation.
Bee-atch (n. bee-yach) to describe my attitude last night on most of my calls. I’ve got ultra-thin patience last night and I wouldn’t even bother spending much time, wasting my precious voice and saliva blabbering if the person on the other line would neither pay or make arrangement. That’s how insane I get if I go to work though my body wanted to sleep and recover from this terrible cough and colds.
Cx: I’ll just call you back (hung up)
This is my nth no commit last night.
Me: (bangs the mute button) Tang***! Magbayad kayong lahat!
The perfectionist.
If there was a named coined after my personality, ‘the perfectionist’ would have been, well, perfect.
I’m such a competitive soul. When it comes to work and relationships. I tend to become obsessive compulsive and want everything to run according to plan, only to be disappointed in the end.
Reflecting on my trait, I’ve made a list of things that I tend to be obsessive-compulsive about:
1. Work - Where do I begin? Being competitive in nature, I tend to want my work to run seamlessly. My colleagues know me for this and I’m sure they can attest to my work-style. Especially when it comes to major events/projects - I become obsessed in making everything perfect to the point of even having nightmares about these projects.
When work kicks into your dreams, that must be REALLY something.
2. Relationships - I put so much effort into making my relationships work, only to be disappointed in the end. Maybe it’s about time that I kick back and relax and just see how it grows. It’s really bad but somehow I thought of relationships as ‘investments’ you know, when you invest an X amount of love, care and thought, it will flourish to a reasonable ROI (return of investment).
Apparently, NO. It takes more than that and I’ve learned it the hard way. Well, maybe my past experience is the reason why I’m so aloof and pessimistic about going into a relationship right now. There are considerable number of guys who are trying to break through at this invincible emotional barrier that I seemed to wrap myself with. I’m just too damn scared of getting hurt that I put relationships at the backseat as of the moment.
Emotionally unattached, to put it simply - when it comes, it comes and I’m sure to blog about it AGAIN. (just like the old times) heehee.
Flu anyone?
I’ve (and perhaps my team mates’ too) been continuously bugged by my endless coughing during last night’s shift. It was embarrassing, really, BUT what the heck can I do to stop it? I have been waiting for this illness to breakthrough after 6 long months of being a busy bee - certified workaholic with a perfect attendance to boot. (Hell yeah) Now that I finally got the flu, nothing could dampen my irritation.
Bee-atch (n. bee-yach) to describe my attitude last night on most of my calls. I’ve got ultra-thin patience last night and I wouldn’t even bother spending much time, wasting my precious voice and saliva blabbering if the person on the other line would neither pay or make arrangement. That’s how insane I get if I go to work though my body wanted to sleep and recover from this terrible cough and colds.
Cx: I’ll just call you back (hung up)
This is my nth no commit last night.
Me: (bangs the mute button) Tang***! Magbayad kayong lahat!
The perfectionist.
If there was a named coined after my personality, ‘the perfectionist’ would have been, well, perfect.
I’m such a competitive soul. When it comes to work and relationships. I tend to become obsessive compulsive and want everything to run according to plan, only to be disappointed in the end.
Reflecting on my trait, I’ve made a list of things that I tend to be obsessive-compulsive about:
1. Work - Where do I begin? Being competitive in nature, I tend to want my work to run seamlessly. My colleagues know me for this and I’m sure they can attest to my work-style. Especially when it comes to major events/projects - I become obsessed in making everything perfect to the point of even having nightmares about these projects.
When work kicks into your dreams, that must be REALLY something.
2. Relationships - I put so much effort into making my relationships work, only to be disappointed in the end. Maybe it’s about time that I kick back and relax and just see how it grows. It’s really bad but somehow I thought of relationships as ‘investments’ you know, when you invest an X amount of love, care and thought, it will flourish to a reasonable ROI (return of investment).
Apparently, NO. It takes more than that and I’ve learned it the hard way. Well, maybe my past experience is the reason why I’m so aloof and pessimistic about going into a relationship right now. There are considerable number of guys who are trying to break through at this invincible emotional barrier that I seemed to wrap myself with. I’m just too damn scared of getting hurt that I put relationships at the backseat as of the moment.
Emotionally unattached, to put it simply - when it comes, it comes and I’m sure to blog about it AGAIN. (just like the old times) heehee.
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