Too Tired to Function

Mood: Disappointed
Music: Sympathy - Goo Goo Dolls





I was bombarded with tasks yesterday and last night’s shift. I felt so exhausted and yet I welcomed work like a long lost buddy. A solace for my unfathomable deranged soul. I need diversion for my mind to abstain from mulling over this or else I’ll just end up resentful and embittered.

You and I haven’t communicated for the rest of the week. I’ve acknowledged the fact that we need to talk but every time I gain the courage to face you head on, you always disappear. Nananadya…

A common friend asked me why not learn to understand you, let you open up with me. Don’t you think I haven’t thought of that? Heaven sake! You won’t even speak with me, or text me – or glimpse at me, for that matter. I can never understand you unless you let me, to begin with.

I am slowly growing tired to be the only person trying to make this work. I can only hang on – NO, give as much til I reach my threshold.

"Leave someone. You have that right.
But the least you can do is to tell them why.
Because what’s even worse… what’s even
more painful than being abandoned is knowing
(that) you’re not even worth an explanation."

- Peter Parker

Yeah, right.