after all

At the end of the day, when it comes down to it, all we really want is to be close to somebody. So this thing, where we all keep our distance and pretend not to care about each other, is usually a load of bull. So we pick and choose who we want to remain close to, and once we've chosen those people, we tend to stick close by. No matter how much we hurt them, the people that are still with you at the end of the day - those are the ones worth keeping. And sure, sometimes close can be too close. But sometimes, that invasion of personal space, can be exactly what you need.

~ Meredith Grey

yesterday, i've decided to finally set the score straight with jv..
no more exchanging of texts, pretending that what we are right now can be more than just friends, when in reality, i can never give him that kind of status. i think the best that i could give him is honesty, to be treated fair enough...

today, i've realized, it's really hard for me to be attracted to someone,
as far as maturity is concerned.. it's the thing that strikes me most when it comes to the opposite sex, his level of thinking, the way he handle matters, opinionated.. hayyy

tomorrow, i will stop looking for the right one, cease indulging myself into hopeless
matchmakings, and to finally accept the fact that love isn't sought, it is freely given...

and when it is shared to your heart's content, only then can it find its way back to you.

I guess all i really need is... time.